Thursday, June 21, 2012

Revealed: Turning it all around and be grateful.

Not a lot of people know about this. Only a tiny number of my friends do. But I am finally writing about it. Because it was just another part of my life that made me stronger. Be grateful. 

I used to have skin problems when I was little. I had all sorts of skin problems, it was a total nightmare. From dry, overly sensitive skin to redness, extreme itchiness. Several parts of my skin had cracks in them and red spots would appear on my skin. There are many points in my life where my skin would break out in hives, or due to the over dryness I had in my skin, bacteria would invade my skin and it would cause wounds to appear and it would be extremely itchy. I would scratch it and it would cause an even bigger wound. Until in the end, I would have bandage wrapped around my elbow or my legs. As a kid I faced these disastrous problems. 

My parents would spent a whole load of money trying to get my skin cured. My father would spend his time bandaging my wounds and applying cream on them while my mom would mix herbal, detoxificating drinks for me. A big part of my sensitive problems were on my legs. Both of my legs have huge, red, itchy wounds that looked like some animal fed on it. Trust me, you do not want to see how it looks back then. 

I didn't know how serious was my situation back then, until my father explained something to me. He said, if more and more wounds appear on your legs without them completely healing, sooner the flesh on your legs will get rotten and they need to be cut off and you won't have any legs anymore. He meant medically. 

That really hit me, from then on I tried my best to cooperate with my parents in helping to cure my skin. But all my childhood I was stuck with this problem. Until I was ending primary school going on high school. About time when I was form 1/2. I wasn't able to wear shorts because I had scars and wounds on my legs. It was so horrible for me. Mentally I was mad and angry and sad because I wondered why did God gave me a pair of perfectly capable legs to walk and jump but with such atrocious problem. Watching other girls with their shorts and perfectly flawless legs walking around was such a mental strain at that time. Teenagers cry at night due to relationship problems, but I would sob into my pillow for the sake of my legs. The worse part was, we didn't know what kind of skin problem I had. Skin like mine weren't very popular at all during my age. Nobody in my family had them, not even my extended family. Most people were just hit with acne and blemish problems on their faces. We thought it was perhaps over sensitivity or maybe it was just me, scratching on my legs when itchiness comes. It was a devastating decade whenever someone mentioned about my legs. It was so uncontrollable. Even as I recall those years right now, its just so crazy. 

One day, they found a skin specialist doctor. We went to him and he did some tests and looked at my legs. And then after all those years, it was finally concluded that my skin had only a couple of problems. Sensitivity and Eczema. 

If you try googling Eczema you can see that it all comes down to the original skin type, I was born with Eczema. Both my parents nor my grandparents did not have them. But I did, and I had to live with it. And then comes the answer, it was not curable. Ever. It was more than a couple of years ago so I couldn't really remember what I was thinking when I got told that. But all that happened, and I dealt with my emotional state. Or else I wouldn't be here blogging about it would I? 

Fortunately, the doctor said it was at least controllable. And here's how I can now walk around with my shorts and the most smooth legs. 

When I was younger, I did not bother with moisturizing creams or hydrating lotions or whatnots for my skin. Not only my legs. Even my arms, face, etc. 

Now, I had more than 10 (maybe even 20) moisturizers, hydrants and care for my skin that I apply every day and night. Some days when my skin feels better I don't bother with anything. Bad habits die hard, don't they? But I've learned, and I know I should take care of myself because God gave me this because he knows I can deal with it and become a stronger person. I did exactly that. 

So I wanted to say, be grateful for everything you have. I did not know how to be grateful to even have perfectly capable legs to walk in until I saw articles of people who lost their legs or who were not born with legs. Every problem you have in life comes with a solution. Its just a matter of whether are you going to search and reach for the solution or not.  

Also, I wanted to thank both my parents for their extravagant amount spent on me, (not only for my skin, but for everything else) and for their everlasting love. No amount of repaying can ever take place of their parent love. Even now I am extremely grateful for everything I have. I would be nowhere on the face of this planet without them. I will continue to be as best as a daughter to the both of you. 

Never, ever, ever give up at allPeople say never give up easily, I think you shouldn't give up at all. To get somewhere in life, you have to be worthy of it. Bring out the best in you, show it to the world. 

You needn't have to worry about my legs or my skin now, they're all well controlled! And I have no plans to let history rewrite itself. 


Saturday, June 16, 2012

What to do with your life?

I actually do have time to blog, and I've plenty of ideas. But they're like all over the place. Kind of like when I got an idea for something to write about and then afterwards I get another idea and then another one later on. Its pretty hard for me to get them all sorted out and put them in passage form. I'm a weird person, when I get ideas, I get A LOT of them AT THE SAME TIME. Which is kind of not so good, cause I won't have time to save them down. Like right now, I get plenty to blog about. Its contradicting. 

Okay, on with the post today.
I'm gonna start with this: I read this somewhere sometime and took it down. Its actually quite amazing and mind boggling at the same time. Ha! Its about life on earth and how we're all connected: 

Did you know that the next breath you take will contain dinosaur breath? It sounds weird, but it's true. Here's how it works. Air is really a mixture of several gases. A gas is a light, invisible substance that floats freely in the air (unless its colored gases, of course.) --- steam, for example.
Two of these gases, nitrogen and oxygen, make up almost all of the air. There's only a small amount of minute gas Argon in the air. Yet an American astronomer named Harlow Shapley calculated that each breath you breathe out, or exhale, contains about 30,000,000,000,000,000,000 (let's call it 30 zillion) - I didn't know there was a zillion. Is there a gazillion too? atoms of Argon.

In a few minutes, those atoms you've exhaled will travel right through your neighborhood. In a year, they will have spread all around the Earth, and about 15 of them will be right back where they started ---- in your nose. Argon is always in you and around you. And not just in you but also in your best friend, your favorite pop star, the birds, the snakes, flowers, trees, and worms. All of us air breathers are sharing those same argon atoms. Amazing, isn't it?

 This is so silly. No it doesn't. Only the dinosaur sketch is cute.
There's more, but thats all I got. The facts led on to the life of dinosaurs and that argon atoms don't disappear or disintegrate, they stay forever. So I guess at least some things are forever huh?

Random facts about me: I'm hot tempered. Like I can flare up all of a sudden when I get mad but then I cool down really fast. One minute I'm mad at any idiotic thing and the next, I'm just like, forget it. Ha! But don't get me mad!

So the next thing I'm gonna say is,
I've been getting from a lot of people about what they're gonna do in their life. Well, not exactly, a lot of them are about what they chose to further study after school. And most of the answers I get are, Business. - In this sense, I meant focusing on money.

Look, don't get me wrong, you can take whatever course you choose. I don't mean this in a bad way. I'm right, right? But recently my dad told me, 

The most richest man in the world, cannot buy youth.
How many people agree with this? I know I do. However rich and loaded you are, you cannot turn back time and make yourself youthful and full of life again. Every person has their own vicious life cycle. And this makes me think about a lot of other things we do in our lives. Get yourself a better profession, I would say.

I was brought up to have a certain mindset that we must somehow give back. Be grateful and give back to the world what the world gave you. So why focus on earning money? You cannot bring money and riches to the next world. Nor can you forever have possession over them. Life shouldn't be only about money. Surely in the world these days money and riches are all people can think about. Without money, you don't survive. 

I'm trying to say, do something else which is much more meaningful. Something perhaps people in the future can remember you for. Do something brave, have a huge impact on the human race. Invent something. Help someone everyday. Gather knowledge to be wiser everyday. Change the world. Make it a better place to be. 

Because in the end, your life should be worth it. You only live once - YOLO

Chase your dreams. Don't stop and give up for some minute bumps. I believe however far off your dream seems to be, you will eventually make it there. As long as you have that winning positive thinking. 

Which brings me back to my first blog post. Your comfort zone and where something amazing will happen is definitely not the same. Step out of your comfort zone, unless you wanna be a loser all your life. What a waste that will be.

People these days spent too much of their time wasting it away. And many of us are trying to find shortcuts, easiest, simplest ways to do a lot of things. Like, what even the point? There are so many many many many examples of these I can't even... From parents to teenagers, to students, to little kids. 

What happened to old fashioned good and proper?

And don't even start by saying the world is so big, what difference can I make? That is so, so wrong. A little goes a long way. You never try and you'll never know. Then you'll spend the rest of your pathetic life thinking, what if?

It just hits me, how twisted and horrible and bad and down and awful peoples' thinking are these days. First of all, make everyday better by just doing some good. You'll have that wonderful sense of satisfaction. And giving back, remember? 

'Coz the world owes you nothing, nobody owes you anything. Not even your parents. No one is obligated to be nice to you, either. So be grateful for whatever and anything you have and what people do for you. 

Look wider and further away than just what's right in front of you. Life is the bigger picture, giving up and settling for the smaller piece of the puzzle is just not worthy of the vast opportunities and chances everyone is given. 

Make a change.  

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